1st day of School :(

Yes, the dreaded first day of school has come. And not just any first day, but Kye's first day of Kindergarten. It's taken me a long time to be able to write this post and I finally decided to just get it over with. So don't they look cute holding their new Star Wars lunch boxes!

I kept telling myself to hold it together but after putting the boys to bed the night before everything just welled up, Aaron didn't know what to say so he just listened to me blubber and sniffle and blow my nose and other pathetic things. It's different for him because he generally doesn't see them during the day since he is working, but for me, my whole being has revolved around these little people. I managed to suck it up the next morning and actually I was excited for them. I love school stuff and new clothes and all that goes with the 1st day. You can tell that Mackinon has been through this a few times now and the eye-rolls were plentiful!

We went to Mackinon's 3rd grade class first. His room is upstairs this year with all the higher grades so that is a bit intimidating. Luckily we were there early enough that none of his friends could see me completely embarasing him with my camera! I even got a hug out of him.

Then it was on to the Kindergarten room where we found Kye's spot and had a look around. He did not seem nervous but happy and just wondering what to do first. Then, Mackinon came in and he must have been a little nervous because he gave me two more hugs out of the blue! He decided to stay and play with Kye until the bell rang. He and I had had a little chat the night before about looking out for his little brother, and he has been really great, letting him play with other Kindergartners but if he sees him by himself going and including Kye in their big boy games.

It was getting to be time to go so I quickly got a friend to take a photo of Kye and I together. By the picture you can't tell how my heart is hurting. I left the building and started walking home by myself. And that's when it hit me. I had no little shadow following me home.

It was pretty much an awful day. I even had to take another shower to wash all my sadness away before going to pick them up after school. They both had a good day. Kye brought home a handprint with a heart glued to the palm and a drawing of his family. Just what I needed! And all Mackinon would say is that Grade 3 is long! I managed to hold it together until bedtime when Kye chose a storybook called Linger, and for any of you Mom's out there who's kids are off to Kindergarten, this is a book to read with extreme caution. It is a beautiful book that is really written for Moms and by the second page I was blubbering again and having trouble speaking. Kye just looks at me with this look of "what the heck is wrong with you" and says, "why are you crying, Mama?" and I said, "because it is a sad book, can we pick something else?" and he says, "No". So I struggle through one more page and then he stops me and says, "It's OK Mama we can pick another one." And so I laughed at myself because it is so silly and to show him that I was Ok. But really I'm not.
K.